The Land Of The Danes

I strangely feel at home here. I say strangely because I don't understand the language, I've only been here for a week, and I haven't really met anyone who fits my age group. But when I'm surrounded by art, music, smiles, and seemingly endless history... how can I not feel at ease? This place is absolutely amazing. If it weren't for the ten months of winter I would consider moving here... but I've done the cold thing already and its really not for me.

I want to travel.

I was talking to my sister about how all the interesting history here seems to dwarf the U.S. but she said it only makes her appreciate how she's part of the history being made today in such a young country and how it made her appreciate where she's from that much more.

Somehow my sister always knows what to say.

Though, as much as I love where I'm from... I cant help but feel... no... I cant help but KNOW I supposed to live here in Europe for a short portion of my life. A year or two. Nothing too extensive. I'm just too hungry for more of it the longer I'm here. The stories, the art, the history... its everything I look up on the internet back home, except now I'm here standing in front of it. I'm here walking through the cathedral's I've only viewed in pixelated photos. Feeling the bricks and wood that was put here centuries ago. Hearing the song of the church bells I could have only dreamed of hearing. Sitting on a bench in a courtyard that long ago was used only for nobles and kings. It's this kind of experience I love and live for.

And I cant get enough of it.

I know it's cliché...

But the time I fond a girl the most attractive/appealing is when her hair is up and her makeup is gone. When she's got simply sweats and an oversized teeshirt on. Cause when that happens, there's no more walls. It means, wether this girl is a friend or the love of my life, we're comfortable around eachother to just be us.

Now I'm not saying I don't appreciate getting dressed up and going out. I love that.

All I'm saying is there's something appealing to me about being comfortable.

I dunno...

I'm happy. I really am.

But i cant help but feel stuck right now. Now that i'm out of work til my doctor approves me on the 27th. But whatever. I cant change it, so i might as well enjoy it for what it's worth. It's a chance to write music. see friends. kind of like a reset for my life right now.

A chance to clear up any stress i had pent up. Catch up on sleep (and T.V. shows.). And heal. By the time i'm back at work it'll be like day one again. And in a way that's kind of comforting. A fresh start at an old thing.

Anywho, I love LA. I've made new friends every single time i'm down here and improved on the ones from before (Legacy... you will love me some day).

Found a quite i love today

"Love is like a friendship caught on fire: In the beginning a flame, very pretty, often hot and fierce, but still only light and flickering. As love grows older, our hearts mature and our love becomes as coals, deep-burning and unquenchable."- Bruce Lee

Something about this quote made me feel very at ease... for just a moment. And I love that.

Well, lets keep this one short for now.

I know I can write a song.

And I'm pretty confident that some of my songs are better than a lot of stuff on the radio.

I just need to stick with it.

I need to get my self out there.

Get my name into the mouths of others... A wierd way to phrase it I admit, but it's what needs to happen.

I don't know what I'd ever do if music wasn't my career. It's what I live for. It's what I love through.

Anywho, news songs coming up.

"if she only knew/ I'd be her fool/ ya I'd play the part/ with all of my heart/ til I fall apart"

And

"she starts to sigh/ we whisper goodnight/ well her smile in that old porch light/ makes it alright"

Here we go!

Halfway Home

The title probably is unrelated, I just always like that phrase.
Something about those two words in that order is comforting. For some
reason it's even more comforting than just "Home". Maybe not more
comforting, but definately more exiting. It's like working towards
something and you've almost made it. I wanna live my life with that
feeling, because the minute you feel like you've made it... The second
you feel like you don't need to work at what you love anymore you lose
a spark. You lose the drive to improve and create. So I hope I'm
always "Halfway Home"... At least in my mind.

     So as I sit here in starbucks before I go to work trying to find that little extra energy that's gunna coast me through my nine hour day (though I've yet to find the remedy), I realized I'm happy. Now I know I've been happy for a while, but I'm talking about a different kind of happy. I've turned a corner. Im no longer in the cusp of working towards something... I'm doing it. Right in the middle of it all. I'm working towards a goal and hard work has never felt so rewarding. I can taste it. LA seems closer everyday. Living with you, running errands, sleeping in, cooking,the Casey family... I have the puzzle pieces in place, all I need now is patience.

     My big sister had her opening nigt last night and I've heard all words like "AMAZING" and "SOOOOO GOOD"... Etc. I know she's amazing... I mean, it's not every day you decide someones family after the fourth time you've ever hung out with them... But I would kill to go see her!!! I mean, not literally kill... Ok maybe...

     

     I've been looking into bartending down in LA. Only thing with bartending is I'm afraid my insomnia would return. And with a vengence, but I think I might be really happy with a job like that. Just conversing with people all night... I dunno. If I could work with dogs I'd be happier... So much nicer than people.

     I have a show this Thursday, but I don't feel good about it. All my rehearsals have fallen through for one reason or another, the other peoples faults and mine too. No ones to blame, it just hasn't come together. I'm hoping i have a day off before thrusday so I can just have maybe like a four hour rehearsal... Even if I'm just by myself.

     Anywho, although this coffee I've been drinking hasn't done it's job, I believe this blog has. You now know where I am in my life. Now, off to work!

- Corey

21? Try 5...

Let me just start off by saying I had the best 21st I could have ever imagined.

Here was my crew for the majority of it.

And then was joined by amazing sister Siera later on, which completed my night perfectly!!! It was an amazing day from start to finish.


Lemme just say this though:

Dear Alcohol,

I will ALWAYS choose cream soda over you. Always.

Your new friend,
Corey



Anywho, I was talking to my buddy Dustin and he may want to come with me to L.A. which would solve A LOT of my problems. Instanly. We wanna be bartenders in Downtown Disneyland. Aiming high, but bartenders would be awesome none the less.

I just wanna be in L.A.

I miss it.

I love it.

I love you.



P.S. Siera... I need hella mo' photos of you an me.

"If you're a bird, I'm a bird..."

And so my week long dream like trip is coming to a close. Though I guess I cant be too sad, cause I might be coming back in two weeks.

Things I'll miss:

-Movie Nights
-Froyo and school with my girls
- Impulse and Legacy
-The entire Casey family
-Cooking for you
-Notes
-Playing guitar while you do homework

And a few other things that I'd like to keep to just me for just a bit longer.

I'm glad this trip rekindled a lot of old feelings and inspired a lot of new ones. All in different areas. I got back something I missed since Jr. year of high school. I'm a romantic, but 3 years of no romance can make a guy rusty. This trip has brought me back to my roots, so to speak, and I couldnt be happier. I think you couldnt be happier either.

I love my girls. I'm more comfortable with them then I have ever felt. They feel like home to me. No, they ARE home to me.

HOME

Sis, you've only known me for about four and a half months and I know you've always got my back. I love. Lemme try that one mo gain. I LOVE!

I cant wait to start working. It'll be the final puzzle piece to making my new life official. I know that sounds dumb, but while I've been back in Cali I felt like I've just been kinda wasting my time. Although I couldnt be happier being back, I kinda feel like (if I'm not in L.A.) I dont really have a purpose. So, I'm glad to finally fill that void. It'll make a lot of people happier with me. Including me.

Anywho, I should get some shut eye before I bus it up for six and a half hours. HELLA MO' KITTY POUCH!

Final Thought:

Wanna go for a walk?

Sometimes Blogs are like Crack...

After my spurt of writing every day for a week, it's good to be back at a comfortable pace. That week was just jam PACKED full of shit to talk about.

Are your problems a good, bad or an in-between?

Thank you Charlie Kelly.

Anywho, I'm leaving for L.A. today and I couldnt imagine leaving a second later. I think I'll be heading back near my birthday, but I'll see if my financial means allow me to do so. That is truly where I wanna be on a milestone birthday like that. With the people I really love and care about. The few people who make me HAPPIER than anyone else. You need those few friends who are always gunna be there for you.

Music is going well. I'm booking more and more gigs and hopefully L.A. will provide a flood of more venues that enjoy having me there.

Anywho, gotta go back.

The Past

Sometimes it's good to relive the past... I think it helps remind us how we got where we are. It helps us remember what mistakes were made and why we make the choices now in order to avoid making the same mistake twice.

Its nice to relive to good moments. To remember we are loved. To remember that we have some many experiences that have made us smile and how we may look forward to more again.

It's good relive old love. Cause you never know when your chance will come again.

AH!

Sometimes you just get to the point where you're just tired of it all. Tired of all the negativity and all the things that for one reason or another are against you.

That's where I'm at.

I'm an optimist at heart. 99.9% of the time I can smile and just let it slide off my back like water on a duck.

But there are times where, for some reason, I allow my defenses to fall. And it sucks.

But I have such a great support system. And I know that I'll be ok. I know that, other then the one or two negative things I have left, I'm at the happiest point in my life so far.

And that's a GREAT feeling.

Not just knowing it, but the people I've surrounded myself with live up to that every single time. Most of the time they exceed my expectations.

I love you all.

All the problems will pass as long as you hold on to what really matters. What you really love. What really makes you happy.

Do what makes you happy. For me... music.

Surround yourself with people you can rely on. Surround yourself with people who you love and know will have your back whenever you need them.

Those are the most important things to me.

Music & the people I love are all I need right now.

Whew... hope you enjoy my rant. Maybe my thoughts will be a little more collected later and I can try to explain a little better.

So, What's Next?

I'm at another transitional stage. This whole winter break had been me reaching a new chapter in my life, but now I just gotta keep reading. I hit the new place... and it's great. And I know it's only gunna get better.

This winter break had changed me and my life forever. In to many ways to explain. But I'll say this; I used to have friends in L.A., but now I have a family.

I love the fact that I've gained a 22 year old sister. I LOVE it. Siera = Coolest... person... ever.

Song inspiration? I think so... I think so.

My music is coming along nicely. I LOVE working with Brittany. It's just so easy and comes so naturally whenever we pick a song to cover. She's got an amazing voice and makes me sound at least 10 times better. I think we could write a really great song together. I just don't know if we've reached that stage yet. She's just kinda starting this whole music thing and I'm right in the middle of it. I think it would be hard for the two of us to find a pace we're both comfortable at.

But I'm proud of her. She's got a lot of talent. I'm glad she's using it. And I'm really glad she wants me to be a part of it.

Powers Duo 4 LiFe

Anywho, I've started to learn Italian. It's something I've wanted to do for a long time... and I think I'm ready now. I'm at the point in my life where everything is changing, so why not throw this in the mix as well. I've always said I'm gunna live in Italy at one time in my life. I'm going to make it happen. I dont view it as something I want to do, I look at it as something I'm GOING to do. Why not? If I feel so strongly about something... why not experience it? Something that's known for art, music, food, rich history, and above all else LOVE.

I wouldn't be surprised if I was made for Italy. Or the other way around for that matter. Or both?

Final Thought:

Forgive Quickly
Kiss Slowly
Laugh Uncontrollably
&
Love Truly

See You Soon.

Not a single moment has gone by that I haven't thought about you.

I love you.



I always have and always will.

Dear Video Buddies.

Dear Dana & Siera,

I am currently typing for a video I'm making you. I wanted it to be authentic, so i thought why not make a blog post. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU BOTH!


-Mr. Powers

Sunshine, not a Storm.

In all honesty, things could not be better. I'm the happiest I've been in a long time. I mean... sure I'm treading through some shit right now, but I can see where my destination is and I love it. Everything that's pressing my buttons right now will come to pass. I have some amazing friends who I have some amazing adventures with.

What more could I ask for? How about a perfect girlfriend... got one of those too, but I'll go into that later. Just know... it's perfect.

Someone needs a walk right now.

Toast in the Toaster and a Confusing Rollercoaster

Wow. Today was interesting.

When all is said and done, though, and I look at where I am... I'm happy. I'm in a REALLY good place with my life. Things and people change and there's nothing you can do about it. The best thing you can do is come to peace with change.

I'm ok. I love where I am. I love who I am. I love who I share my life with now.

I think I'm still too much of a headcase to completely write out what I'm feeling, but I'm proud of myself for standing my ground and accepting it all so quickly.

I love being able to forgive quickly. What's the point of letting it linger? Life is too short to grudge. If you dont like something let it go, dont keep it around and let it bother you.

If you love something, hold on as tight as you can. It's what truly makes you happy that really matters.

They say if you love something let it go. I've never been a fan of that saying. I much prefer to say: If you truly love something dont waste a minute without it.

So what my day really boils down to is acceptance. You need to accept the good and the bad.

Accept the hurt. You have no reason to let go if there is no hurt. The hurt is what you learn from. Its there to help you make the right choice next time.

Accept love. Dont be afraid to love. Ever.

Well, I hope this was somewhat coherent to anyone other than myself.


Probably not.

Which Way's Home

So here's the image that started my song. It was just one of those days. I sat down and just drew what I felt inside. And with my limited color scheme and untactful left-handedness this is what I came up with.

Thank You 2009

Wow, what I've learned from 2009. Some of the deepest shit I went through. It changed my life completely and I learned from it all.

I moved across the country.
My music changed and grew.
I got kicked out of my house.
I got my first real paying gig.
I almost met John Mayer.
I met a new friend who is now family.
I reconnected with an important old friend.
I lost a mentor who had changed not only my life, but my mother and my sister's as well.
I made mistakes.
I did some things right.
I found a goal and I've taken the first step of achieving it.

So, thank you to 2009. I've changed more in that one year than I ever have before and as much as some of it hurt... the good that came from it will always be reward enough.

Look out 2010... I'm ready.

My goal = L.A. Hopefully... if everything goes the way it's seems to be going, I'll be there by spring. Good timing too. The spring is one of my favorite seasons. And fitting to. It's a time where things come to life, almost like a rebirth of sorts. Trees breathe new life and so will I. Soon enough.

As for the music. "Which Way's Home" is my latest song. A very important one to me. A milestone song. It's there to remind me about the point in my life where I was at my lowest and things turned around. Now immortalized in song. It's the type of song that's also left up to the listener to interpret... something for them to apply to there lives when they can't find the words. It's not just a youth's song either. I've had people of all ages tell me that it applied to what there were going through right now. And that makes me happy. I like being able to not only touch the emotional heartstrings of people my age, but that my words cross over to other generations as well.

It's a good feeling.

I'm happy now. Things are going very right for me. Very right indeed. I'm finally allowing myself to break past a barrier I've had up for a while. Taking the next step that my mind would constantly sabotage. I'm happy with where I am. You make me happy with where I am. Thank you. :-)

Anywho, I brought in the new year by putting out a house fire... I'm intrigued to see what the middle and end hold for me. It's gunna be a good year. And I have so many to thank for it. But there are two girls I am especially thankful for. You two are my friends, my love, my family. You have no choice.